Kiss (keep it simple, stupid) Part 2

I lost weight with WeightWatchers in a healthy manner back in 2002. However, when I started losing weight, I also came out of my shell and became less shy. I started hanging out with people from work and gained weight back in slow intervals because I wasn't keeping track of my food and was eating out a lot more. That same year I met my husband and we got married and pregnant (Yeah, we work fast y'all!) and I moved all the way acrossed the country to be with him in Hawaii at Pearl Harbor Naval base. I'd never even been to sleep away camp and wasn't prone to sleeping at other people's houses when I was younger, so can we say BIG adjustment? my entire eating style went out the window. To much Papa Johns, home made chili dogs and nasty boxed Mac and Cheese with the squeeze pouch and not enough water and exercise. I gained 60+lbs with my son. I was 247 at birth. He was perfectly healthy but my blood pressure was super high.





I started Weightwatchers again three weeks later and with the help of losing water from giving birth, I was already down to 222 again. Within three weeks with Weightwatchers Core plan (lean meats and fruits you could eat as much as you need to stay satisfied and you'd have 35 weekly points to spend on bread or whatever non core items you wanted to eat. The plan has changed several times since then.) I was down to 212lbs. However, for whatever reason, I fell off the wagon. We moved from Hawaii to California and we went through a period where we were really really struggling with financial issues and I became very depressed. I'd eat the cheap food we could afford from the store and just sit on the computer all day while my two year old ran around making a mess. I didn't shower everyday. I didn't change my clothes everyday. I got up to 277lbs. I attempted WW twice out there but never went more than a week or two before stopping. It was a really sucky period in my life i'd like to forget. I wasn't the perfect mother I should have been and I wasn't the perfect wife or human being either.






I started to become obsessed more with WHAT I was eating than how much. Which, of course, in a way is a good thing because what Weightwatcher's teaches you in the first place is that you can fit the treats in, and eat what you want, but you also must eat fruits and veggies and healthy fat and protein as well. However, i'd take it to the extreme and began obsessing about the amount of carbs in foods and thinking that to lose weight i'd have to follow what is working for OTHER people..cut the carbs down to veggies, eat meat only. I kept reading and researching and listening to OTHER people and trying to follow THEIR eating plans, wanting that bikini ready body.




In 2007 we moved out here to Guam. It's beautiful, but it's also very, very tiny. It's extremely humid and if your not a beach person (a beach person that enjoys rocks and eels and other sea creatures crawling near your toes) or a snorkeling/hiking type of person, Guam is not for you. We have Kmart, a Macys and some of the same fast food places but that's about it. Still, with what it lacks, you'd think I was crazy to not love a place that gives you a beautiful sunset like this:










But the truth is, i've been miserable here. I've gained and lost the same 30lbs three times in the last nearly four years. I'm overheated, I haven't seen family since the summer of 2007 because it's to expensive (not to mention about a days flying to get here) to fly from here to anywhere, and my confidence is pretty much shot all to hell. My son loves me, my husband loves me, no matter what, but I don't love me. I need to take better care of myself. Stop getting so obsessed with following eating plans that get super fast results but are also super restrictive. Let's face it, at 254lbs right now, i'm far from the stage where I worry about not have any fat ounces sticking out in a bikini. I need to follow a plan that I can stick to for life and GET me even close to a place where i'd only be five or ten pounds overweight. That is why i'm getting back to the basics of Weightwatchers and Kiss. Kiss stands for keep it simple, stupid. I am no longer going to overcomplicate this part of my life. No carb? lalala, can't hear you! Don't eat carbs after 2pm? lalalala don't eat that, ever? lalala, can't hear you!. Everything in moderation, more fruits and veggies, tons of water, that's it!.





I leave Guam for Washington in October and I plan on doing it weighing less. First weigh in is Tuesday, May 31st Guam time. I'd do it Monday, but the gym is closed tomorrow in the morning.